Nobishiro by Maruko

So what shall I do now.

Thanks to everyone that now I have several part time job to earn my living. There are some offer from “proper” company and I go for interview. I am still wondering if I should join back to the corporate world. I am not sure.

At the moment, I have several part time job to earn my living. Sometimes anxiety hits me when I started to think how difficult to earn the amount I used to earn and worry about my future.

So I realised earning money is not easy. Current situation where I am in is making me realise several things.

Earning money is to think of my relationship with society. What I can contribute to the people and society. How much people and society would appreciate my work and contribution. How much people and society is willing to pay the amount in return. I cannot just do something I believe. It is all about building a relationship with society.

There is this small sized company with about 50 people. They want to start direct trade rather than purchasing the items from distributor here in Japan. To them, international trade is very new and they need a guidance and support from experienced person. So here I am to have a session with them. After the session, the way they expressed their application was so much more than I expected. Even the owner of the company gave me a call to thanks me. Receiving direct response made me happy and motivated. These people need me.

Instead, there are some area I was thinking I have a business chance and needs. Spoke to 4 companies about my idea and service I can provide. Their response was… nothing favourable. Here, I realised that – it cannot be just one way of my own thinking… need to find out the needs from the buyer/society.

So I ask myself again. Am I happy ? At least, I am no longer a part of the negativity and I am happy that finding small happiness everyday.

What about you ?

Chidorigafuchi park. Tokyo. Apr 2024.